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Where I'm at Right Now

September 20, 2022

• Applying to tech companies and software dev roles (currently at 30 applications)
• Getting interviews for quite a few of them luckily
• Mother hates me, mother hates herself
• Father doesn't know how to interact with me. I don't know how to interact with him
• Older brother only talks about video games. Dissociates 24/7 except for video games
• Little sister stays at the dorm. Confident and not insecure. Golden child, able to do well in life. Has strong, healthy relationships with good people
• Cousins hate my incel-looking ass (not an incel)
• Little cousins see me as a role-model big bro, lol
• Doing classes, acquaintances are being made, but no real friend friends
• My real friends graduated already, we play video games togther, which is fun
• I spend all day scrolling YouTube Shorts and destressing that way
• I tutor in programming sometimes, for free
• I don't draw anymore
• I don't program for fun anymore
• LeetCode
• I eat good food from time to time, pretty much the only enjoyable time of my life
• Reading books is nice
• Haven't drank tea in ages, but I think I'll do it tomorrow. It's my only solace in life
• Ugh