Weariness
February 10th, 2023
It's difficult interacting with my parents. I don't know what's gotten into them. I say one thing wrong and my mother is goes straight to lashing out. Like I've said before, if reality doesn't go her way shit hits the fan. Then she starts bitching at my dad and that obviously ticks him off.
Then he most definitely makes it my problem.
I hope one day he'll realize that he's the one who married her, and he's the one who's going to have to live with her the rest of his life. If I were him, I'd have divorced a long time ago.
I'm pretty certain both my parents had a horrible upbringing. Even by their greatest efforts, it seems it was impossible to grant me a decent one too.
Would I be able to grant my children a good childhood? I have my doubts.
Maybe I've been spoiled rotten, and my parents are good people. Should I just an hero now?
Frustrations
Maybe I should just take a break from the words. Not to dwell too much on the reality of the situation.
But I feel trapped. Financially trapped too.
Sigh. How about I just go to sleep? It's been a long day.
