Visionary
March 6th, 2026
There's been a movement in my life towards healthy diet, sleep, and exercise. Physiologically I feel much better, and I've been reading a lot more.
There's been a mistake made at work, and I need to take responsibility. I am uncertain of the future steps, but this is a mistake on my part.
I will drive an incident report in how to improve the process.
The Charisma Myth
There's a book on charisma and an idea is that charisma is the combination of power and warmth. I realize I'm someone who presents a lot of warmth, but zero power. I feel almost uncomfortable with power.
There's a feeling that choices in my mind would be made that would be seen as tyrannical and wrong. There's this idea in mind that power is equated to negative outcomes and authoritarianism, essentially a psychological disdainful belief in influence.
There have been experiences I've seen where, my parents in particular, have abused power to enact their emotional instability. There's a feeling of lack of self-truth welling up in my throat and fear.
These feelings are natural and normal, and actually are important to stop me from being tyrannical and abusive.
But having worked at my job I can see that leadership and power can be used to enact good change. A good leader can bring people together to do amazing things that they couldn't do individually. A good leader can inspire great change and beautiful change.
A vision brims to the mind, one of a better future, one of a beautiful future. Something to help people be people and aid them in their lives.
A mindset of responsibility, and a mindset of being responsible for enacting positive change in the world. It is a sense of duty and vision.
There is no feeling in my body to need power to control others, but there lies a need to power to enact great change.
My Path
There's no technique or prescription that's written in the stone to tell me what to do, only my reflection on the nature of human beings, that only my conscious alone can find a conclusion and reckoning to. For my experiences and my "Go board" is unique with all the fraughts and frailities that have occurred over my existence.