The Dude
July 18th, 2025
I have been burning out. I have burnt out. I no longer can get myself to work.
I have no idea what to do honestly.
I just do not care anymore.
The Dude
I'm an ordained minister in Dudeism. Sometimes I forget. Just. Just let it all go. Go with the flow.
My ego wants me to be a hero, but if anything I realize that's really not the case of what I'm looking for.
Just... live man. That's just, like, your opinion man. Language? Reality? Bumfuck? Cocaine and Hookers? Man, that's like, that's just your opinion man. The dude abides.
Really, just do as you are. No need to pressure yourself into doing this or that. You put a lot of pressure on people, well, some of them are going to collapse! You prod them with bayonets, well, some of them are going to be stabbed!
Just... yeah man. Just... there's what you can and cannot do. Just go with the flow man.
Yeah man, I got a big ego. I get it. I fucking get it. I knew it from day one. I know that I'm awful working on teams. I get it. I know. I'm trying. I'm trying my best. I'm going to therapy. I'm trying to get rid of my ego. I'm trying to do the work, re-network the neurons, and just, like, be the good ol' jolly spirit. Yeah man. I know. I just. I just. Trying to do all this and be someone who I'm not is just exhausting. I'm not that team-player career-climbing freak-of-nature GOAT. I'm just a fucking stoner. I'm a stoner who someone found himself amongst the smartest people in the fucking world and I can't even keep up.
That's just like, your opinion man. Yeah man.