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Sitting Inside, Gaming

May 10th, 2024

I visited my old high school friend yesterday. He flew down for another acquaintance's wedding.

He had a moustache. And a baby.

I'm twenty-three. It's dawning on me time is moving rather quick now, isn't it?

Other Friends

I saw my other friends, who I neglect to talk to and visit. He was... grossly balding to say.

I regret saying that about him, but he looked sickly and tired. Depressed even.

We spent the evening watching TV together and going out to eat greasy tacos.

I sort of realize that our habits... really do form ourselves.

Myself

I recall now that members of that friend group have done some unsavory things. Some disgusting things in my book.

I now realize why another friend, N, wants to distance himself from that friend group.

Maybe it's time for me to get some distance. Move on with my life.

I don't want to be some sweaty nerd, playing video games in his mom's basement, eating sticky pizza, and not seeing the sun for weeks on end. I don't want to be some horny loser who wants a woman slave to be a mommy and a hole for him. That's disgusting.

I want to eat clean. I want to be less judgemental. I want to be more relaxed and chill.

I want to move forward with my life.

Clean Living

Maybe I'll go to church, or the temple. I'm not sure. Live morally clean.

Go volunteering more often, go support 5k runs more often.

I want to run in the sun. I want to play in the sand. I want to go hiking hills, and climbing mountains. I want to race long distances.

I want to be a better person.