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February 20th, 2023
A recurring pattern I notice in my posts is that I'll go on a philosophical tirade while avoiding how I actually feel. I'll whine and whine again in hopes of "discovering something new."
Basically, I use baseless, repetitive intellectualism to hide I'm a big pussy. God.
Can't I, I don't know, just man up and be a bit more heroic?
And like, stop whining?
And like, stop whining?
AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
What do I really want? To stop being a big pussy. Do shit. To stop fearing the Sword of Damocles.
I just want to breathe in and live. That's it. And, I'm gonna' trust myself that I'm going to do just that.
Cheers.