Oversharing
September 12th, 2025
My coworkers are becoming what seems hostile and prickly against my suggestions. I personally am realizing being hyper try-hard is not good for the team culture.
This team doesn't appreciate that level of hard work. And I'm rubbing them the wrong way by doing that.
I might transfer teams, despite having a good manager. My friendships with my coworkers are deteriorating because of my output. Am I just a boot-licker? But really, how you do anything is how you do everything, so why not give it your all?
Therapy
Yesterday I realized at therapy that I don't know what other people think. I think and interpret their actions as to what I think they think, but it's not necessarily what they think. My mind could literally be making shit up, and it's important to understand I have the ability to put paint on the canvas any color I'd like.
Additionally, should I even take into account what other people think? I should probably decide if I think what is being felt and said by others is pertinant information. If it's signal I should listen for that which aligns with my "reason to live."
Oversharing
I always overshare when I open up to my friends, and then it alienates them to an extent. Maybe they don't care, or that they're uncomfortable, or whatever. But most of the time it's never a positive response even though it makes me feel less lonely.
I should stop. That's what this blog is for after all, a place for me to share about my life. Most conversations consist of me being considerate of others and thinking of others first.
In actuality, they probably don't mind it. Or care really. But I feel uncomfortable oversharing that about myself I realize, it makes my image look bad. It's not necessarily them, it's just I have a reputation to maintain and that's important to me. I should respect that.
I should keep my private life to myself.
A Life of Fun
I'm going raving, buying a motorcycle, and eating out alone. I'm playing chess, reading books, and researching investment opportunities.
I'm doing the things I love. But like today, I feel lonely about it looking into my dimly lit room.
I just wanted a house, a wife, and kids. But life takes you places you never expect! When life gives you limes, don't make lemonade!
