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March 22, 2024
My grandmother always told me to do good for others, and the good will come back for me.
I don't know if it's true, but the feelings I have felt before have been so dark and depressing. The emotions are strong. I've taken medical depressants for a portion of my life, and can safely say I have the experience to empathize with other depressed individuals.
In my heart, I do not want others to have to experience what I have felt. Voices, cries, anguish, all of that depressing slop. I want to help others believe in themselves and take care of themselves.
My work here, my experiments here on myself, I hope they can serve as reference to someone one day. Maybe one day, I will meet someone and do good for their life. No---I will do good to every single person I meet.
Or perhaps what I mean is, to go beyond words, to indulge in the feeling, the sense, the emotion of the time, the want, the need, the desire---to do another human---another being of the same epoch---well.
Grey morality, genocide, politics, destruction, anger, rage, seething frustration, depression, suicide, self-harm, bullying, exile, they all exist. We experience these things as words, as concepts, but they are very real. They plague and confront our senses.
But go beyond the words, I want to take people into the present and help.
Running
Go kayaking. Go hiking. Walk a mountain trail. Go visit your grandma. Go visit your parents. Call a friend. Volunteer at a food bank. Eat vegetables. Drink water. Cut out inflammatory foods. Eat anti-inflammatory foods. Go volunteer at your hospital. Start a club. Meet some new people.
Go surfing. Go skiing. Program a game. Talk to people. Chat them up. Be honest with others. Give other people a smile.
Go beyond the reductions, the abstractions, the words. Go beyond the doomerism, the ideologies. Go beyond nationality or origin. Go beyond sex and gender. Go beyond categorization and organization, chaos and entropy. Go beyond hope and despair. Go be at one with what is. Go find the Tao, and lose the Tao again.
Go run.
