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July 18th, 2024
I'm turning twenty-four in ten days. I've noticed that I'm much more... level-headed compared to when I was nineteen or so.
But I had passion back then, passion for my emotions and feelings. When I was young, I sought out to imitate Marcus Aurelius and read his Meditations daily. Now that I'm older, I can certainly see the benefits of being overly emotional and sensitive.
I think we should do well to celebrate what we are and how we've come to be. Especially the trials and tribulations I've been through, and the ease of life I've experienced so far. I haven't had many financial worries or anything of the sort.
I've gotten back into running and I'm far more emotionally disciplined than I was a few years ago. I'm certainly hypersexual, but I've not felt the need to act on it and have been more properly restrained.
I've been playing a game called Stephen's Sausage Roll by increpare games, and frankly I enjoy it. I've gone to his page and looked deeper at the games he's created and found something interesting.
Schizophrenic Game Developer ?
He made a game called sub/conscious, that forcibly looks up "cee pee" on your computer. It's more of a piece of malware than anything.
A lot of his other games pre-2015 are forcibly abstract and terribly eerie for the most part. I enjoyed playing a few of them, and found them quite memorable though there aren't as many detailed assets within them. I think they're for a sort of cold intellectual crowd that over-philosophizes on nothing, but being a hot-media enjoyer myself I still found it enjoyable.
Creating Value for Others
I want to create values for others. I want to make a good video game for other people.
The question is, what should I do for others?
How do I make them feel good? In particular, what feelings do I want to spread to the world?