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I miss her so bad

September 30th, 2024

I miss her so bad. I miss her a lot. I miss when she'd ramble on her husbandos, and ask me which one I liked. I miss her rambling on gacha games. I miss her company everyday. I miss her messages everyday. I miss hearing her talk about art or life or philosophy. I miss when she'd tell me what she thought about my troubles and issues. I miss hearing her voice.

I miss when she'd tell me about her problems or her life, or her siblings or her parents, I miss when she talked about her family and friends. I miss when she talked about her lessons and lectures. I miss when she talked about how she thinks about art or what she does.

And, I miss when she complained all the time. I actually miss it. Nothing is a lot stronger than negativity.

I miss her so much.

When I talked to her, I started to have dreams again. Isn't that insane? It's absolutely insane and unscientific, but it's true. Now I go to sleep and wake up without ever seeing a color. Like there was nothing in-between, and that the time I sleep is completely ephemeral and transient.

I don't have dreams anymore. I just feel heavy. I miss her so much.

But it's not all so bad. I have my motorcycle, I'm fixing my car. I'm working at challenging problems at work and am intellectually stimulated. I just, I just miss her a lot.

I hope she's doing well.