How I Treat Others
September 5th, 2025
When I was younger, I sought attention, validation, and sex from other people. In conversation I would carry an implicit tone or verbiage that conveyed that, and humans are hard-wired to detect these underlying motives.
Perhaps what I'm saying is that the solution to all my relationship woes likely stems from asking too much from others.
Interacting with some individuals drains my energy, whereas other individuals and group settings make me feel great. And, I've started to realize that I have the same effect on other people. When I orient my conversations towards serving other people, I feel I invigorate them better with positive energy.
But I have to tread carefully, it's a balance: do I need them to feel positive energy, or am I just offering positive conversation?
It's about why I'm even having conversation in the first place. To fill my needs? To fill others' needs?
Going for a run
Running always helps. Climbing helps. Riding my motorcycle helps. Exercising helps.
Writing and stewing with my thoughts in some intellectual exercise... doesn't help.
Action before any reaction, it seems.
I'm going to cosplay in a maid dress. But something's upset me—there's a cuter dress I missed on Amazon that I should've rather ordered...