Hot Pot Alone
September 18th, 2024
I went out to eat hot pot alone again.
Work is getting tough. My manager is getting annoyed with my output. He says it's not enough. I've been here a month and a half.
He said to get impactful items in order, and get them lined up. I think he's asking this of me to defend myself and where my time has gone. In other words, that I'm not doing enough.
I'm under stress. I started watching moe anime again in order to escape reality. It feels a bit sad.
Other people have their social support to handle this amount of stress, where is mine?
It must be my fault. I should stop whining so much.
I'm sorry. I'm just feeling awfully alone right now. What would Dazai do?