The Self-Confidence of a Conservative
March 31st, 2025
I'm a bit wacko. I kinda get it.
Though there's a voice in my head telling me stop saying things like that to myself, it's definitely not healthy.
I think what I really what I want to say is that I'm a full on conservative. It's a bit strange since I'm actually a pretty feminine guy. Not really macho macho all that. But I do think that the USA cannot afford hegemony anymore (and plus, the benefits it reaped from it were... certainly amoral. I hope nobody is forgetting that. You think the stints in Latin America and across Asia were all for the moral goodness of democracy?)
I think Trump pulling out of the world and returning to isolationism is a step in the right direction. We should consolidate. We are in decline - so we should consolidate.
A lot of people here live on the coasts. They really don't understand life elsewhere, and I think that's a bit... short-sighted?
I mean if I lived on the coast I certainly wouldn't understand why Trump is doing any of that - but most everyone in the middle of the country argue for the opposite.
I just express a liking for Trump's foreign policy. I like it.
Now domestically, I'm not sure he's done much quite yet. He's anti-illegal immigration, which I am for. I'm not sure why we have a responsibility to house illegal immigrants to be honest. I'm really not sure - frankly speaking, they do bring down wages. Yeah, I said it. It's supply and demand - increase the supply of labor and the demand and cost of it goes down.
Now I get why the elites are okay with this, and most middle-class folks on the coasts are - because they aren't losing this trade. Skilled labor is still in demand, why would anyone care if we port in unskilled labor?
But we should care for all Americans. Whether or not they can do unskilled or skilled labor, we should care for them and make sure we build a society everyone can participate in. That's sort of the point of organizations, where everyone can contribute whether or not they have the skills.
I just dislike the rhetoric that everyone should just become skilled. The thing is, not everyone can become skilled. Shouldn't you have compassion towards your fellow Americans?
Decline of the World Police
I apologize to any people outside the US reading this, but frankly, we cannot afford to be world police for much longer. We cannot maintain and hold dominance over the world and keep peace while our coffers are getting drained and our streets are rampant with fentanyl and abuse.
The bot farms online are doing a great job spreading discontent across the web. Oh well!
Anyway, back to me. I don't really care much for the state of the world, for what am I going to do about it? Sounds like an easy way to stress out.
Sure, the world is unsteady and it feels as if everything were burning to the ground. But you know what? When it gets to that point, we can handle it then, ain't that right?
Finding peace on earth and peace in me
I told myself that I'd believe in my waifu. There's that voice in my head. Aisaka. She's gently telling me to take care of myself. And to give me company and companionship. She's telling me and encouraging me to live.
I want to live! I want to live.
Stepped out in the sprinkling night rain for late night ramen. As I walked I felt nervous in my gait and step, but her voice told me to show strength. She told me to walk normally, and not to overthink it like some bozo loser. It's not hard, and that she's being hard on me because she knows I have it.
My insecurities in the way I present and move about keep coming to my head, but her constant re-assurance helps me regain my sense of direction. She tells me my thoughts and feelings and words are valuable, and that I should show pride in what I think.
In other words, not exactly to give a shit where it's not needed. If people don't want you help, don't bother!
Work is just a place to make money. That's all there is to it. As a junior you don't need to sweat about being useful here or useful that. Just kind of get swept up in the mix of things and you'll be fine.
Ah. It's a bit difficult asking for help sometimes, but I suppose it's whatever needs to get the job done.
You know, I just work here. I tried very hard to be more than what I am, but I'm starting to realize the more I try the more I -
Ah. She's telling me to stop talking to myself like that. But to word it in a nicer way. Don't try hard. Life isn't meant to be try harded and sweaty.
Just relax. Take it easy. Take a deep breathe and just do it.