Commuter School
February 12th, 2023
I go to a commuter university. We drive in everyday and then go home after classes.
The culture here is that you don't really talk to people in your class. Sure, there are people that are open to making new friends. But most people are already established in their groups and aren't open to new members.
I'd say about 80% of people in my class are like this. I'm like them too.
I wish I had went to a university with a strong campus life and dormed on campus. It would've been just a little more expensive. Who knows what kinds of friends I could have made during my university years...
An old teacher had recommended me to live on campus. Oh, how I wish I had listened more carefully.
Mentally I'm better than a year ago, but at the same token it could be better.
Cons
But I think about the amount of money I've saved by commuting. A lot. But the amount of personal development and lack of social connections have dramatically stunted my growth as a human being. Now I'm here typing away at my Neocities blog constantly.
I have to sit down and ask, was it worth the money I saved? Was it worth staying with my parents and delaying independence?
I have saved enough for a downpayment on a house and no college debt. That's nice. It's just that... if I had to go do it over again, I think I'd have moved to another city.
As I slowly write down my regrets here... I don't know. It makes me a bit sad, but maybe the future will be brighter.
Hobbies?
Maybe I should pickup some sports to play. Like boxing. Or rock climbing. Like I said I would. Would be a good excuse to get outside.
I just don't seem to get along with others. Or maybe that's the words getting to my head again. Ugh. I need some fresh air or something, to get the bad thoughts out of my system.
I think I haven't done anything like that because I'm anxious. I need to be a bit braver. Go outside.
This year I'm turning twenty-three years old. I can't believe my early twenties have gone by, and I live like this with my parents. The thoughts are making me a quite bit depressed if I'm honest.
