Cleanser
September 16th, 2025
Remarkably, I am in the best mental capacity I have ever been, yet spending the most time alone than I ever have. It's funny how life works sometimes, right?
Amazon
I've been ordering a lot of things off Amazon. There's a couple oil stains in my shirts, and unfortunately, as the young bachelor I am, I dried the shirts. So here I am ordering heavy duty cleanser in a small prayer to save my nice cream shirts.
I also ordered a rice mochi facial cleanser, maybe you've heard of it. But in a rebellion against capitalism I'm not going to name it here, because God do I hate product placement, intentional or unintentional.
And lastly, I ordered a drawer organizer. My utensils have been rolling around everytime I open the drawer, I figured it'd be good to have some form of organization. I'd love to go on a monologue tidbit on our perpetual conflict for order against the chaos (a la biological and sociological forms of organization) here, but I'll refrain and leave it at, "I'd like to be more organized."
Tickets
I sold my anime rave tickets to a couple folks since my siblings are swinging into town that weekend. I'd rather spend time with them, after all they flew here.
Of the people I sold it to, I sold it to a really pretty girl. Okay, I looked at her Venmo profile picture. And her Instagram, which she linked in her Discord bio. She used the ":3" face a lot in her replies, and double exclamation pointed "!!" as well.
I may be old, but folks who do that probably have been through a lot. She's really pretty though. And yes, she's taking up more of my headspace because she's really pretty. My utterly pathetic cretin brain is an unfortunate happenstance.
Anyway, I got my money, and I sold all my tickets.
Trying to Work
This morning I tried to go to work. I biked and came to the train station in a sweat since it's hotter than normal. Or perhaps, I was still symptomatic of the flu and fevering.
I got on the train, went to work, snatched a couple berries from the cafeteria, and then headed home. My workplace is rather nice about letting folks work from home when circumstances occur, especially appointments and sicknesses.
Inviting Others More
I've been inviting people out more, and I think I'm okay if they turn me down. More okay than before. My therapist would be proud, and more importantly, it's a really good skill for me to have in the future.
Making this Neocities Site More Public
I will disable the 18+ filter so that people who are 18+ but don't search for 18+ sites will have this site show up.
I generally don't feel comfortable with kids younger than 18 reading some of the things I wrote. Perhaps some of it to find relatable angsty content. But in general, I think it'd do well for other people struggling with mental health or life or just bored in general to swing by and read a couple entries for the hell of it.
