Being Friends Being
May 24th, 2024
To be fair, I don't think I'm in any hormonal or mental state to be telling you any rational fact.
I've spent these past few days talking to my friend. She's the closest friend I've had. Ever.
I don't think she sees me the same way though. Haha. That's okay...
But it's got me thinking. If I do catch feelings, and she's lesbian and all, does that mean I have to distance myself?
I'm quite addicted to the feeling of company. That's why I haven't posted here in a while.
Sigh. Not sure what to do.
Come and go
Surely friends come and go. I'll just accept it for the time and moment.
I'm super inflammed. I wish I could tell someone about how I feel.
Narcissism, Self-Absorption, Men, and Anime
I realized after talking with my friend how... sexist anime media can be. And how sexualized women are constantly.
And I realized how much I sexualize women constantly.
I'm not going to go out and claim that women like or dislike that. I don't know. I'm not a woman. But for one thing, it's that women are constantly looked at and treated sexually. It's true.
The sexual revolution has really done that to us. I wonder if its effects should be reversed.
Or if I'm mistaken about the whole ordeal. I don't know. I was born male. I am still male. I don't know much about these things except that I am "the aggressor" rather than "the victim."
Who knows. I don't. I'll try my best not to sexualize women constantly now that I'm self-aware about it. It's quite sad.
I'm also horribly self-absorbed. Just look at this blogpost. Thousands of words, nothingburger, about myself. Sigh.
I would drink alcohol or abuse some substance, but unfortunately I still want to take care of myself to feel some semblance of better.
Cheers.