Be an Asshole
August 16th, 2022
This is advice for myself, as a rather meek and mellow guy. If you're actually an asshole, great. You don't need to read the fucking blogpost.
Yeah. I'm not entitled to be an asshole. Or a victim. Neither are you. But hey! Fuck you.
I'm saying don't hold open doors for people unless you really mean it. Taking the authenticity to its full extent. Don't say sorry or thanks unless you really mean it. That makes a world of difference actually, and people can tell that shit instantly.
No, I'm not entitled to do this shit or that shit. I'm starting to accept that I'm just a normal fucking guy. I'm just a really angry normal fucking guy, and rightfully so. I think anyone else would be really fucking angry after living the life I've lived.
Basically, with all the injustices and bullshit you have to go through but going 22 years without having the opportunity to bitch about it or hit drywall. Yeah, you'd be pretty pissed off too and want to take that out on the world.
Fuck man, I'm tired of having to "suck it up buttercup." I'm FUCKING SICK OF IT. FUCK YOU SONS OF BITCHES TOO, I'LL KNOCK THE FUCKING DAYLIGHT OUT OF YOU.
And no, you're not sucking it up either fucko. I know some of you bitches are alcoholics and drugged out all the fucking time. Just BITCH for Christs' sake and be a fucking ASSHOLE for once. I'm tired of pretending like none of us are asshole twats.
Dude. Like what normal guy isn't a fucking cuntbag. Listen, if you truly believe that nobody is special, and you've ran into total pieces of shithead horseshit cuntlickers (which you have...), surely you must also realize that EVERYONE has that total piece of shit living inside of them. It's just human fucking nature. If you disagree, use your fucking eyes.
We're all fucking demons. And we're all fucking angels too. Fucking hell. I hate how society likes to have these fucking "feel-good layers" and "pretend nothing is fucking wrong!!!"
And the whole "Japanese people are so nice!!" shtick. Makes me want to puke. I can tell you for a fact that Japanese people can and will get angry. And no, they have not been this culturally "nice" for their entire history. It's all this fucking modern beta shit that's spewing into the mass media. FUCK. DUDE THE FUCKING RAVAGED EACH OTHER FOR AN ENTIRE CENTURY FOR POWER. WHAT IS THIS FUCKING HARMONY BULLSHIT!!! THEY STILL COMMUNICATE THEIR NEEDS AND THE FACT THEY ARE PISSED OFF, JUST IN EXTREMELY PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE (HARMONIOUS) WAYS. NOT THIS FAKE BULLSHITTERY, FUCK. "NO... YOU'RE GOOD! DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT. HAHA!" O FUCK ME IN THE ANUS, I'M TIRED OF EXISTING IN THIS SHIT.
THIS ISN'T NORMAL TO ALWAYS PRETEND LIKE YOU'RE FINE AND DANDY. FUCK! JUST BE A FUCKING ASSHOLE AND GET OVER IT.
"Pretending" to be someone else is a completely modern concept. They didn't do this bullshit back then. In fact, go to any down-to-earth farmer-type kind of people and I guarantee you they aren't pretending to be someone else. They'll give it to you straight. FUCK.
Authenticity is probably the biggest problem I'm facing right now, and it's the biggest problem everyone on their fucking phone watching dogshit spew blah blah blah across their fucking faces is dealing with right now. BE AUTHENTIC. BE AN ASSHOLE. JUST FUCKING UNLEASH YOUR INNER RAGE DICKHEAD MODE AND TELL SOMEONE OFF.
But do it nicely. Just say it to get it off your chest and fuck over someone else. At this point, I'm tired of how uncompassionate people are. Fuck them. Fuck you.
Take responsibility
One thing I like about the book I'm reading: take responsibility. Yeah, if you're an asshole, own it.
But the one thing I hate about the book I'm reading is that the idea you have to change yourself if you're an asshole or whatever the fuck you're doing. What if you don't? Huh? Yeah. Just keep doing what you're doing. SELF ACCEPTANCE.
What if by taking responsibility, you think you're fine as is? I think that's far better than constantly trying to "self-improve" your fucking horseshit. Look, if you're dogshit on the inside. Like, a real, stinky, living piece of turd. No matter what you're going to do to polish it, it's still going to be a fucking turd.
And some people are just like that due to shitty childhoods. Look, you take people who go through really abusive and traumatic experiences and they can't even fucking speak. Yeah. They should change themselves. Yeah. Instead of just fucking accepting their fate, they should just suffer more and try and change themselves to come out with a more polished, shiny living piece of turd on the inside. Sure. I'll tell you what. Self-acceptance at that point is probably going to get you further than self-improvement. Stop with the fucking BULLSHIT.
And by the way, responsibility has nothing to fucking do with "fault." Those are completely separate things. And I'm fucking angry at people who get those mixed up ON PURPOSE. Nobody's ever at "fault." If you want a "fault," go fucking abort a fetus fucko. It's this world's fault that it's gay and homophobic, so shut THE FUCK UP about who's "fault" it is. Yeah, I said it. This world is fucking gay and homophobic.
sElF-IMprOvEmeennnt!!!! O FUCK, PLEASE FREE ME FROM THIS FUCKING WASTELAND OF A WORLD. SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT SELF IMPROVEMENT IM GOING TO HAVE AN ANEURYSM. NOT EVERYONE SHOULD SELF-IMPROVE!!!! THIS WORLD IS JUST GOING TO BE A FUCKING FAKE PLACE TO EVEN EXIST AND EVERYONE WILL BE GAY AS FUCK SPOUTING OFF THE TOP 10 CONVERSATION STARTERS THEY FOUND ON REDDIT!1111!!! FUCK.
literally, just be yourself. holy fuck. it's not hard. it's not easy. it just is. and guess what? your life will be all the better for it, instead of trying to be sigma giga jocko watching jordan peterson worshipping fucking alt-right giga sigma piece of giga chad looking hunk short king xd and omg "just be yourself" retard that isn't really "being yourself" but "omg be the best version of yourself!!!" CHRIST END MY MISERY.
Look, I read fiction all the time. The characters in the fucking fantasy world where fucking lizard and dragon dogs roam the fucking planet are 100x more real than people I meet in real life. I get it, it's the fucking fantasy world. But why is Spock more relatable than any human being I meet? Is it my fault that nobody is opening up to me? Or is it because I'm just retarded? FUCK.
Am I not entitled to get to know other people as a regular human being? I don't understand. I really don't get it. Why the fuck has it all gone wrong?
Maybe, it's just because I'm so nice on the outside. Maybe, I just need to be a complete asshole on the outside, maybe then I'll start to talk to real people.
End the fucking rant. The suffering won't end, but hopefully I'll meet more assholes.