Bacon
October 19th, 2025
Oh my God. That was the best bacon I've had in my life. It was so fatty, and I didn't get a stomachache after eating it.
It was so good I ate it for both brunch and dinner. Took a nap in-between. What a great day.
From the farmer's market they also had rabbit bone broth. I drank a cup; it tasted no different than chicken bone broth.
The Oura Ring sizing kit came in, I'm excited. I'd like to track my sleep quality, and currently the Apple Watch I have isn't the greatest quality.
While climbing today, my grip strength gave out rather quickly. I should start working out again.
My mother retired. The time is passing so quick. My aunt's cancer re-surfaced. I haven't heard from grandma in so long.
Why, the need for money is diminishing as I age. What I want is more time.
Though want and need aren't exactly what I need. To do a re-evaluation of my life, things are objectively great.
Health is Wealth
I'm level-headed when I have good sleep. When I am not hungry. When I am hydrated.
I should make sure I get a good night's rest.
Ego and Acceptance
I think the fastest way to finding peace is to accept yourself. Especially the bad parts.
There's a video on the internet where a White man has a shiesty on and five or so Black men confront him. The White man asks, "Why can't I have it on?" Then they clown his "Buzz light year" "no-neck" lookin' ass and everyone's laughing.
He smiles, "Okay, I'll be that. But why can't I have it on?"
I think that energy is really grounding.
"Yeah I'm broke. Why can't I be broke?" Or "yeah I'm ugly, but why can't I be ugly?" Or even, "yeah I'm rich, but why can't I be rich?"
Is it a problem, or how it is? And if you want to change how it is, does it need to be a problem?
Yeah, I'm old. Yeah. Oh.
I'm reaching unc years. Sure. I'll be that.
Yeah I want more time. Yeah I get nervous. I'll be that. I'll be nervous. I'll be anxious. I accept.