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A Good Day

January 17th, 2023

Wow. Today was a good day. I spent most of the day being bored, but going outside and running errands did magnitude for my mental. Let's see all the things that did me good today:

  • running errands for more than 3 hours
  • running for more than 3 miles
  • lifting
  • treating myself out to carrots and hummus
  • not mindlessly browsing the internet for the entire day
  • reading manga I enjoyed
  • not pressuring myself to be productive
  • laying in bed bored out of my mind
  • sleeping 8 hours and at 9pm the previous night (thanks, past me)

Things I'm Grateful For Today

  • lollipops
  • sleep
  • a full stomach
  • talking to and trolling strangers
  • a beautiful day outside

Self-Affirmations

  • I'm awesome
  • I'm easygoing
  • I deserve peace
  • I deserve to choose what I'd like
  • I deserve to do what I'd like

all in all

I feel a lot better after going to sleep early. Like my mental health just dramatically boosted. I'm fairly convinced that social media (YouTube, Reddit, and HackerNews) are all fairly bad for mental health. Talking to real people is much better (since we're made of meat.)

I feel like my life is going where I'd like it to go. I'm not thinking too much about women to be honest. Even knowing in the back of my head my grandma is trying to arrange me a marriage (I'd rather her not. But I won't deny an old woman her raison d'etre.) There's just something peaceful with the way I'm living right now, and I wouldn't change that for anything. Another day like today, well, I wouldn't mind living.

Well, I'm glad I could give my past self a good reason for why he did things the way he did. I'm glad I could justify for at least one day that it was a good idea to not an hero that day. Let's try and keep it up for tomorrow. Humans should want to live after all. I think it's in their nature.

the future?

I am afraid I'll revert all the too quickly. I'm not sure why my mood swings are so violent. I hope in the future I'll be able to do something about that, but for now it seems like it's alright.

In fact I'm so bored I might just make myself productive tomorrow. Who would have known?

Cheers.